Mountain of God

I know I changed the song not long ago and changed again. But I so want to put this song also coz this song really shows stuff. The first verse says,

"I thought that I was all alone,

broken and afraid,

but you were there with me,

you were there with me."

and He has indeed been there through always. The chorus is more of what I want to talk about. The chorus says,

"Even though the journey's long,

and I know the road is hard.

Well the one who's gone before me,

He will help me carry on."

Well, its like the new year. We dunno what is gonna come. We dunno how we are gonna handle it. New responsibilities, new environments. We just have to be reminded that He's the one who's gone before us, and He will help us carry on. (:

Third Day - Mountain of God



I thought that I was all alone,

broken and afraid,

but you were there with me,

you were there with me.

And I didn't even know

I had lost my way,

but you were there with me,

yes, you were there with me.

Tell you opened up my eyes I never knew,

that I couldn't ever make it without you.



Chorus:

Even though the journey's long,

and I know the road is hard.

Well the one who's gone before me,

He will help me carry on.

And after all that I've been through,

now I realize the truth

that I must go through the valley

to stand upon the Mountain of God.



As I travel on the road,

you have led me down,

you are here with me,

yes, you are here with me.

And I have need for nothing more

Oh, now that I have found

that you are here with me,

yes, you are here with me.

I confess from time to time I lose my way,

but you were always there to bring me back again.



~chorus~



Bridge:

Sometimes I think of where it is I've come from,

And the things I've left behind.

Well, of all I've had,

what I posess,

they can't quite compare,

with what's in front of me,

with what's in front of me.



Even though the journey's long,

and I know the road is hard,

well, the one who's gone before me,

he will help me carry on.

And after all that I've been through,

now I realize the truth

that I must go through the valley,

to stand upon the mountain. . .

well, I must go through the valley,

to stand upton the mountain. . .

yes, I must go through the valley,

to stand upon the mountain of God.

Sentosa

This morning went to meet jie, liwei and lucy. Ate breakfast at United Square. Then we went to harbour front to meet Crystal. Then went sentosa for interview. We met Susu and his church friends at sentosa. yea. Anyway, I hope all 3 of us can get the job. I am not very confident of it. Oh well. (: Here's a pic I took on the moving tram with a timer. Haha! The cam almost fell off the tram. =P

Jonk's House

Today went to Jonk's house. Eliza, Ethel, Crystal, Liwei, Lucy, Amos came also. (: was fun. I was first there and was playing darts with Jonk. Super tyco lar. My first shot was a bulls eye. Haha! yep. We jammed at Jonk's house. quite fun lar. Amos and Crystal were like trying to beat Jonk's marble blast high score. lol! We went to play outside also. I dunno how Lucy and Amos ended up throwing the neighbour's coconut. Haha! The thing got smashed man. Oh well. Here's a video on jonk grinding and Eliza's dart throwing. =P



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Take My Hand And Walk

I have always wanted to put this song up. Now its up. I guess I have not fully trust in God. It's very hard. Especially when you try and follow Him and yet He leads you to a place where it seems like in the middle of nowhere. That's why it is so hard but we must trust in Him. I have been talking to God and sometimes its like I keep wanting to go back to what life was last time becuase it seems so good. I guess I do not see what is ahead. I'm sure God has something better. I just have to hold on to Him. Like the Chorus says,

Take my hand and walk where I lead,

Keep your eyes on me alone,

Don't you say why were the old days better,

Just because your scared of the unknown

I just have to follow where He leads, even if i can't see anything else but Him.



This is to you. I may not know how you are really feeling now but you're probably struggling with this too. Just take His hand and walk.

Take My Hand And Walk



I know there are times

your dreams turn to dust

you wonder as you cry

why it has to hurt so much

give Me all your sadness

someday you will know the reason wy

with a child-like heart

simply put your trust in Me



Take My hand and walk where I lead

keep your eyes on Me alone

don't you say why were the old days better

just because you're scared of the unknown

take My hand and walk



Don't live in the past

cause yesterday's gone

wishing memories would last

you're afraid to carry on

you don't know what's comin'

but you know the one who holds tomorrow

I will be your guide

take you through the night

if you keep your eyes on Me



Take my hand and walk where I lead

Keep your eyes on me alone

don't you say why were the old days better

just because you're afraid of the unknown

take my hand and walk where I lead

you will never be alone

faith is to be sure of what you hope for

and the evidence of things unseen

so take my hand and walk



Just like a child

holdings daddy's hand

don't let go of mine

you know you can't stand

on your own

The Reason

I am proud to present my new wallpaper! I haven't done 1 since super long ago, before my O levels. Now here's my new one! (:

This wallpaper is called The Reason. It's not fantastic or anything. I just thought I shared it to show what He has done for all of us!

Silenced

I never meant to make you feel bad or anything. I don't want to hurt you. And I am gonna do as you request. I am not angry for the things that happen. I am not angry with you. I just want to clear all this. Friendship is all I want to regain.

5 Days more

5 days more to the New Year. yep. so fast eh. Time really flies. Went to watch narnia today with ethel cystal and lucy. was quite good but not fantastic. they changed quite a bit from the book. yep. oh well. Time is running out.

My Missing Words

You know, everytime I talk to you, I always miss out a part of what I want to say. I just some how forget at that point of time. I don't want everything to be this way, and I can't blame it on another person or anything else too. I'm not too good at talking, forgive me. But then again, I shall just remain silent for my voice is irritating.

Christmas this year

Jollification \jol-ih-fuh-KAY-shuhn\, noun

Merrymaking; festivity; revelry.

Some inform; some prompt the conscience; some entertain, while having more than jollification in mind.

--Stuart Klawans, "A Greek Bearing Gifts," The Nation, June 21, 1999

In July, expect the usual impertinent jollifications in Key West: look-alike and Key-lime-pie-eating contests, arm-wrestling tournaments.

--David Gates, "Resurrecting Papa," Newsweek, April 12, 1999

I didn't know that this word exist. I don't think Christmas is abt jollification. I guess many people take Christmas as this or just the giving of gifts.



This Christmas was different for me. It's not the normal thing that happens every year. Other years I have never really thought about why Jesus actually came. We always just remember that Jesus was born on this day but forget the reason. We must remember the reason.



Christmas this year is indeed different for me. Not totally happy like the previous years. I guess stuff have been bothering me. So much distrust, so much misunderstanding, so much gossip, so much distortion. I just wish one thing this year. But then again, wishes are just wishes.



Waiting for my world to fall

Happy Birthday Jesus!

Just came back from walking down orchard.. haha! wasnt really good.. yea.. but oh well.. zec's party was not bad.. =P ethel was quite high.. haha! oh well.. Happy Birthday Lord..

8 more days

Its 8 more days to the end of the year! yea! Short time left but I'm gonna make this year good because of these 8 days. This year hasn't too good for me. yea. Even though there were a few very good times. Im gonna make it great!



The Cross before me, the world behind. No turning back raise the banner high!

It's not for me, It's all for You!

Jesus is the leader

I will forgive what you have done for this is what Jesus did. I choose to follow what He has done.. so now just forgive urself.

If you need me, I'll be there.



The bond so strong that cannot be broken.

God speaks

This few days, weeks, months I have been fighting with my problem. Thinking too much about it till it overwhelms me. Trying too hard. But yesterday, God showed me that I really have to leave it to Him. I never realised that He was speaking to me in that way, and actually it had happened many times before.. just that I never realised it. I thank you Lord.



I'm gonna be the way I was made!

Runaway

I want to runaway.. Run till I have no more energy.. run till I totally have no strength to even think.. so that I wouldnt have to fight my own thoughts..

Youth Chalet

The Youth chalet was kind of fun. I think i walk the from macs to the chalet and back like 10 times or something.. haha! super tired lor.. we kept going macs. Talk a lot of cock.. =P yea. and thx glori for listening. I was surprised by some of the stuff you said. yea. =) Thx glori..

Dear Lord

I in that place once again. Show me Your way. Amen.

Happy Birthday, Belly!

HAPPY BRITHDAY BELLY!

Haha! Happy Birthday! You are finally a year older! =P but don't worry, still young. 18 only. =P Yea! Too bad you are flying off so fast tmr. Have a good holiday! =P

Went to Crystal's house today. =P She and Liwei were there to do belly's present. yea.. =P haha! I almost fell asleep on the chair lar. Anyway, at the end of today, I'm super tired, but I'm super happy also.. =D

Amazed



You dance over me

While I am unaware

You sing all around

But I never hear the sound



(chorus)

Lord I'm amazed by You

Lord I'm amazed by You

Lord I'm amazed by You

And how You love me



You paint the morning sky

With miracles in mind

My hope will always stand

For You Hold me in Your hand



How deep

How wide

How great is Your love for me

I will praise You. In the bad times, in the good times.

I wonder

Today I went to meet Lucy, James, Liwei, Amos, Su Lyn, Kim, Audrey. Met Amos, Su Lyn, Kim and Audrey first. I felt so awkward la. =P I only know Su Lyn and Amos. yea. Then I had sore throat also, then can't really talk. Oh well. It was super weird man. Later met James, Lucy and Liwei. yea. Then continued to walk around. I didn't buy anything in the end. And I realised one thing, the evil one is still trying to hit me in the way similiar to last time. I know this time I'm not gonna fall.

I Thank God

I Thank God for my falls. Even though I don't know what comes out but I know I will learn from it. Somehow. I choose not to react to all this in a negative way.

Reflections

I have just came back from youth camp. It was quite ok. yea. only some stuff were fun, like liwei and mingdao's thing in the middle of the night. haha! yea. And I learnt some stuff too. Not only from the camp but also from liwei. yep. There is still so much I dunno.



We may see the light, But we don't see the direction it's pointing

Changed

I guess I am not really in your life any more. Things have changed so much ya? I have made to many mistakes to make this go back to the way they were. I have tried too hard and I'm really tired. As you know, I have admited my problem straight to you. Think I'm weird? well, I cant say I don't care totally, but I don't care. I have to let go. I know God will make a way, though maybe in a way that I want. And I thank God for what has happened totally over the past 2 years. For the good and the bad.



I lift my eyes unto the hills, where does my help come from, My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of Heavena and Earth!

SU Camp 2005 : It's All About You!

I entered the camp expecting to just get away from a tiring life. But I got much more than that. This camp really turned me inside out, outside in, whatever you wanna call it. I really felt God there, speaking to me.



My group was great! Chrysolite, Happening ar!!! Haha! And my group leader so happen to be, Crystal! =P Haha!



God really spoke to me during the worship, the message, and even the fellowship. But there was one song which the lyrics itself touched me. For all the others it wasn't the lyrics, it was God's presence. This song is called Agape.

The Chorus goes:

So i fall into your outstretched arms

And release the fears that hold me down

Nail-pierced hands and blood-stained brow

And now i am found

Agape surrounds

I do not know why, or what is with the lyrics. They just seem to pierce straight to my heart.





One word to describe the camp?

AWESOME!!

The Way I Was Made



Caught in the half-light, I'm caught alone

Waking up to the sunrise and the radio

Feels like I'm tied up, what's holding me?

Just praying today will be the day I go free



I want to live like there's no tomorrow

I want to dance like no one's around

I want to sing like nobody's listening

Before I lay my body down

I want to give like I have plenty

I want to love like I'm not afraid

I want to be the man I was meant to be

I want to be the way I was made



Made in Your likeness, made with Your hands

Made to discover who You are and who I am

All I've forgotten help me to find

All that You've promised let it be in my life

ASP

I have learnt ASP today! haha! =P But i cant say I'm pro at it yet.. oh well.. James taught me. thx james. Later went to lucy's house then went to watch movie with lucy, james, leonard and elroi. We went to watch Chicken Little. yea.. was an ok show only. oh well.. =)



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