Uneventful Day

Music: Augustana - Boston

Today was an uneventful day. Nothing much happened. I think tomorrow will be that way too. I have no school tomorrow anyway. Time to go study now.

Peace, it's not a temporary state.

Different worlds

Music: Jason Mraz - I'm Yours (Session@AOL)

At the back of my mind, you are still there. It was foolish of me to think that I could beat everyone in your world. I guess it's just worlds apart. It's time for me to let go. Just remember the one thing I always say to you, Smile.

OOP screwed

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To think I would be humbled that way. I screwed up my presentation for me OOP on monday. It's my best module. I don't think I will fail but will still do quite bad. I guess God chose to do this coz I was proud about being good at it. It's in fact not by my ability that I can do this, but His.

Humble me, Lord.

Goodbye, my friend

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Just came home. Tired man. Had dinner at prata house with james and the others. (: yea. A farewell for james. (: had a lot of fun. I guess these are the little things that make friendships stronger. To all those there tonight, lucy, elroi, eliza, shiyan, belly, dennis, and of course james,

"Most of our lives is a series of images, they pass us by like towns on a highway. But sometimes a moment stuns us as it happens, and we know that this instance is more than a fleeting image. We know that this moment, every part of it, will live on forever."

See you soon james, we'll miss you.

Let that be enough

Music: Switchfoot - Let that be enough

Let today be a new start at life. It's time to get out of the hole that I sub-consciously fell into. Let what I speak be a testimony to others.

What started off as focusing on God, soon became focusing on worldly things. The evil had slowly crept all these into my mind. he made me feel that I was inadequate. Every time I was "fired up" enough to do something for God, satan just like pushes a button and makes me feel lousy, makes me feel that I can't do it, makes me feel nervous and uncomfortable. And I keep running for things that I know I'm suppose to do. I felt alone in all of this. Not because I was really alone, but that satan made me feel I'm alone. I kept trying to fit that God-shaped hole in my heart with everything else except God. I kept running after worldly things like games, people, gadgets, songs (not saying songs are bad), etc. I'm not trying to blame satan, coz I had a part to play.
Fortunately for me, God placed the right people around me. He should me His love, again, through church, bible study and stuff. All these made me realize that nothing else but God is important.
I was listening to this song, Switchfoot & Jars of Clay - Let that be enough (Model Behavior), when what I just wrote began to form. It was the chorus that hit me. I guess what we really need is God's love. All we have to do is accept it and not lose focus.

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
Let that be enough.

Let Your love be enough for me

Soccer

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Soccer today was good. I haven't used so much energy in such a long time. Was a good game though my team lost. Haha! (: Worship today was good also. Overall I had fun today. (:

She waves with a slight smile.

Ephesians 2

Music: Switchfoot - The Blues

I really have to thank God for the people around me. Whom He choose specifically to be there. I have to thank God for His perfect plans. Anyway, bible study yesterday was good. We did Ephesians 2. We are really blessed to be save by God because of grace, and not my what we do. Not only so we cannot boast, but so that we might do good works for God. To sum it all up,

We are saved by faith, not works, but the faith that saves, is never without works.

My closest friend

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Oh well. School was normal. busy busy. Met grace, eunice and cheryl after school. Suppose to help them buy stuff but didnt buy in the end. Anyway, found some of my old messages, and this one strike me the most. Made me realise what an asshole I have been. Not that I didn't realise it before, but it reminded me.

You disappoint me ryan. I never thought you ............. would feel that way............................. was upset i would talk to you insted of the rest ...... out of all my friends ........ think I'm using you? ..................... so don't reply....

Thats like bits of the message. I guess I was really an idiot at that time eh? At that time, I think I made many excuses saying I wasn't thinking straight or I didn't phrase it in the right way. But I guess I learnt a lot out of what has happened. That is why people say, You don't know what you've got till its gone. Anyway, You probably know who you are by reading the above. It's funny still talking about it after so long. :D Yep. I'll be that friend you knew again. =)

My closest friend.

Be saved

Music: -

"Look to Me and be saved.. "

I was doing devotions to day and I read this. It's easier said than done right? In times of hardship, for a christian, we are more likely to turn to Him. However, when blessings are on us, we are more likely to turn get distracted. No one said that this is easy. But I know we will find that missing hole in our hearts if we continue to live for Him.

Did you feel that?

Sunday Times

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I am the same CG as belly and glori. =) Today was fun. After church went to eat. James order so much lar. Eat until cannot eat. I wish I have the food now though, I'm hungry now. =) Oh well. After that went to PS with eliza and crystal. Shopping! Or rather just walking around. Got to finish my last part of my OOP. =)

You were there when I needed you, you were there when the skies broke wide wide open.

Long Week

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I haven't blogged this whole week. Been really busy. Got like projects to submit this week. Next week also have. Yea. Then helped in NP open house also. I don't know why but I am super tired. yea. Anyway, had bible study last night. It was great.

Fleeting thoughts that come back.

Captains ball

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Finally some work out today. Captains ball in church today. I just found out I lost most of my stamina. Fine, not really a surprise since I sit at home everyday. Had lunch at Long John, PS. Yep. I'm still amazed by Mingdao's magic. Haha! He's really good. Lucy and I were just talking about it. Oh well. I'm still watching One Tree Hill. Haha! I think I like it not because of the storyline but that the show has various famous quotes placed in the shows. They actually make sense.

Reason is the slow and tortuous method by which these who do not know the truth discover it. The heart has its own reason which reason does not know.

Something New on a Saturday

Music: Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Woke up at 10am today, which is like really late for me. :P Haha! Oh well. Went to funan with my family in the morning to get webcam and other stuff for my sis. Anyway, on the way to church, we were talking about ways to kill a crab. My mom just got a live one to cook for dinner.

Ways to kill a crab:

Dad - Freeze it in the freezer
Mom - Boil it alive
Sis - Poison it ( Then how to eat -.-)
me - Let it free in my front yard and try and smash it with a hammer. :P

Ok ok. Enough of all this stuff. Went for lunch with elroi then jammed and had practice. =) Spending quality time with friends. Crosslink had lamp making today. =) quite fun lar. Glori and I were doing one. :P She drew the apple logo with "iPoke" at the bottom for the design of the lamp. Haha! Then I did the wood stuff, yea. Such old tools man. Haha! eliza! Next time if I help you transfer your design to the wood again, don't whack so fast. Haha! :P Anyway, went out after that. It's been good, just chilling, talking, and playing cards. =)

Talking to cheryl now. yea. Don't thank me so much cheryl, I just did what I would do as a friend. I know you would do the same too. =) Haha!

Make a difference in 3 people's lives.

complete.

4:12

Music: Number One Gun - Fireside Wing

I love this song. It's Switchfoot's 4:12. It's from their latest album, Oh! Gravity. Just shows how materialistic we humans can be.

Switchfoot - 4:12

You've been having trouble staying asleep
You been waking up at 4:12
You roll the voices over in your head
Then you try to put them neatly on the shelf

You watch the sun rise
You saw the darkness had no choice before the dawn
With your own eyes
And then you broke out laughing from a yawn

You said,
"I'm so sorry I've been so down.
I started doubting things could ever turn around.
And I began to believe that all we are is material.
It's nonsensical."

So you walk outside and everything's new
You're looking at the world with new eyes.
As if you'd never seen a sky before that's blue
As if you've never seen the sky in your whole life

And then the phone rings
As it turns out you are already late
And now you're wondering
Was peace just a temporary state?

You're waiting tables and parking cars
You've been selling cell phones at the shopping mall
And you began to believe that all you are is material
It's nonsensical

I still can't believe that all we are
And that all of are dreams are nothing more than material

Souls aren't built of stone,
Sticks and bones
And souls aren't built of stone

Anyway, this semester of school is really fast. February 13 and 15 are my only 2 exams. Thats about one month more even though only 2 weeks has past for this semester. Oh well. Then I will have like 2 months holiday, and that is the end of year 1 in poly. Time flies. =) I wonder how people taking the same exam as me is gonna celebrate valentines day. Haha! :P

The time is now to stand up for the little that is left.

Chacha

Music: Chris Tomlin - How Can I Keep From Singing

www.chacha.com

A serach engine which provides not only a normal search, but also a live guide to help you search what you are looking for. But then again, who really uses it. Here's a sample we did. :P

I began believe that all we are, is material..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ETHEL!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELIZA!!

Points of Regection

Music: Planetshakers - Arise

Another day which I was tempted in playing more than listening. I need to get focused. Anyway, talked to one of my friends whom I haven't talked for quite a long time. She didn't know it but it helped me from being dragged down into the same pit that I've been trying to climb out from. She simply just reminded me that I should not try so hard to hold on to friendships. Not that they are not important, but that God will provide.

God did not say we will have close friends, He just said He will never leave you.

For the past half a year or so. Every time I'm "fired up" enough to "jump" for Jesus, satan keeps saying I'm not good enough. Of course, if satan said it straight in my face it would be easy to ignore it, but it was subtle, making me feel like no one cared just because people didn't talk to me for a while.
To climb out of a pit is one thing, to not fall in again is another. God is the center, no matter how the world is being distorted.

James, Shernise, thanks.

Good Morning (New Day)

Music: Switchfoot - Head Over Heels (In This Life)

Good Morning God. Good Morning Everyone. It's another day. Make the best of it. =)

I could use a fresh beginning too. All of my regrets are nothing new.

Slide

Music: Goo Goo Dolls - Slide

Slide.

What you would do..

New Years Eve, 2006

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Last day of the year. =) have you done all you wanted/needed to do? Only got a few hours left. Oh well. After leaving house at 9 in the morning, didn't go home till 3am. yea. Spent the night at christine's house. Didn't do much. Oh well. New year, new start. I hope.

Like today never happened.

Fastest Hands First

Music: The Fray - How to save a life

Today I play for Crosslink, long time since I did. One thing made my day today. When belly said played well. Haha! I haven't played for some time already. Thanks belly. =) I played like made today. Crystal lead. Yea. The first song use a lot of energy. Fastest my hands move in a long time. Haha! =)

When you stop doing something you are good at for some time, and go back to it later, you will become even better. Sometimes its not always just practice.

Back to school

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Today is the first day of schooll. It's really boring. haha! Nothing much happened. After school went to vivo to watch Curse of the Golden Flower. Storyline is not fantastic. Yea. Oh well. I need to get back to work.

That might work.

Happy New Year!

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Happy New Year!

Silence at home one new years day morning. :) A new year has begun. A lot of stuff to do done and completed. Another shot at life in this crashing world. Maybe being brought to almost nothing has a good side after all. You have nothing to lose when you are down there.

Only one matters. Him